Breaking down

I broke down today when I realized I’m not happy with how my life is at the moment. I recently came to realization that I’m quite lonely these days, I think I spend to much time by myself. I guess it doesn’t help that I have self destructive tendencies like spending hours reading novels and watching series instead of doing something useful with my life. I need to fix myself, so I’m gonna see a therapist as soon as possible and I’m gonna get myself back in order. The sad part is that I don’t even know why I’m so sad, I just feel so useless in life it sucks. I cried for hours but didn’t even know why. And I’ve had a writers block for months so I feel like this is the worst.